I can’t say you and I didn’t have our moments. You certainly didn’t make things easy on me. Over the last year, there have been some major peaks, coupled with significant valleys, each accompanied by imperatively important lessons to be learned.
This year I’ve seen what makes me tick, what makes me smile, what makes me giggle until I cry, and what makes me cry until there’s nothing left to do but laugh.
I’ve learned that most of the time I’m bubbly, but it doesn’t mean I don’t also feel anger. And I’ve learned that I love Star Trek, and I’m totally ok with it.
I’ve found that I love myself more when I’m sober than I thought I ever could. And I’ve learned that one should be ridiculously, laughably, wildly in love with his or her own life — and even more important, I’ve seen how within my control that is, and have had to remind myself multiple times that this control ironically often comes from accepting the things over which we have no control.
2013 in summary – I moved to the city of my childhood dreams; landed jobs I never thought I was qualified for (and did just fine); matched to a dietetic internship, solidifying my plans to become a registered dietitian, and met clinical cases I thought I wasn’t capable of solving (sometimes excelled, sometimes looked utterly foolish, but after all I turned out ok); I cried a lot, laughed a little bit more, moved on from a wonderful relationship that had run its course, letting go of someone I loved deeply, learned to handle my emotions without alcohol to numb them, and determined who some of my real friends were whether I was ready for it or not.
Oh, and finally got to try poutine (Canadian french fry dish with cheese curds and gravy goodness that has been on my bucket list for some time).
(It was delicious, of course)
All in all, 2013, it’s been REAL. No other phrase seems quite as fitting. And to your successor, 2014, I say BRING. IT. ON. I’m ready, and can’t wait to dive in, blazing my own pathway from here to Happinesstown. I am open and ready to receive the bliss I deserve. Let’s do this!